Posted by BYJ himself ont he official board and translated by Joanne of BYJ's Quilt.
Posted by BYJ (filmen) on his official home board
How are you? I am BYJ.
How are you? I am BYJ.
It signifies that a year will end soon when the cold winter comes, and it is unusually cold lately.
Do you all stay warm and well? I am doing fine.
I feel it a little belated to ask your regards. Having said every time that I would no longer leave long writing and would visit you often, I only have to say to you that I am sorry that I visit you with a long writing again without fail. How should I best say about what happened all those days...I am a little tense as I sit in front of computer in a long period of time. Although I have greeted you bowing my head whenever I met our fans either in the theaters, at the event places, or personally, I would like to greet our family formally and courteously.
I think that I was able to do all the things thanks to you.
Encountering a good scenario, Time I spent with good director and staff, and actors...Although I feel short because I cannot share it in pieces. Your concern, love and cheer that I was able to feel, give me big energy to come here unshaken. And for that, I again give you my word of appreciation.
Frankly, it was my first movie and it was a work that gave me a big burden because of its genre. However, I was so pleased because it was much loved. It is a matter of course that I derived the feeling of confidence that would be able to do something else..Thank you for believing in, watching for, and giving strength to me, Bae Yongjoon. I was able to feel reassured thinking... until now our family have not changed... , and you also enabled me to believe in myself. Those were what I gained after working on the movie. You have made the beginning of the 'Actor BYJ' possible. I believe that you will keep on eye on that road in the future. Please consider this as my trust in you.
Of course, I think that you could have lost your strength lately. Actually, when the similar thing happened previously, I thought that you would all know about it. As the article was such that every one might well know its intention, I too did not feel it necessary to mention about it. I thought that you also would trust me. However, if such things repeat over and over without any explanation, you are to lose energy. Although you are the family, I think that you would get amply disappointed. However, I did not like that. I was very sorry at the thought that our fans, who have strong sense of pride and self-esteem, would lose strength. And I also was annoyed...Because why my appearance is shown in this way as I always put efforts to give you trust, not disappointment...
I think that I am becoming a better person. As I meet you, I learned the way to open up my mind to people. As I want to keep that good aspect, I mingle with far more people. As you well know, people would fight as they do not know each other very well. I think that there wouldn't be any person one cannot under stand if one talks to looking at the face and if one sees that person's eyes. In that regards, playing golf is a very good exercise. I thought for a moment...That doing it hard with the mind that no matter what I do, I wish that would influence me well at the moment when I go near you could bring on this adverse effect...
Frankly, I feel that those media was a little irresponsible as they are in the position that everyone could easily contact with. If you read it a little bit, you would well aware that it is a speculative article. The fact that there contained none of my postition and explanation also means that there was no process of confirmation of the truth. In that regard, it is a little disappointing. I feel like that they took advantage of me as the main figure of hot love to boost the sale of the paper. I would rather want to be cast as the main figure of a good movie.^^
They have to improve. I think that it is natural for them to provide the correct information to the public. Actually anyone has to do that and also can do that withoug hesitation. I think that I and you also can practice that as people who are in contact with and using many media. Although we may have to compromise at times as the reality is too huge, we have to live knowing at least in our mind which is right or wrong. Although there are times when we cannot do anything or when our hearts are broken. I think that the reporter could not do anything else. Because I understand vaguely the situation of him, I do not resent him much. I just want to show my little wish that things would improve in the future.
There won't be anything for you to be disappointed. I have kept saying since long time ago, I promise you that I will certainly talk to you when I have a precious one, and when the time comes. Just like introduing my girl friend to my family or my friends, I will tell you bashfully and cautiously as if I introduce my precious friend to people who treasure me and who understand me. I think it does not suit for me to have press conference & give interviews talking about the occupation, hobby, and look of my precious one. Although I want to boast (her), it is the mind that everyone who ever have loved would know that I would like that much to take of her, love her and protect her.
Nowadays, I am going over scenarios throughly. I feel like that I again return to the starting point.
I will deliberate it like when I chose my first work. As it is only the beginning now, I will put more efforts and challange to go forward one step by step.
You also do your best in your own places always and do not forget to cheer me up. Please keep warm in the cold weather. I wish you health~
To all my family, I am always sorry..Thank you...I love you.
12/21/03
Respectfully, Bae Yongjoon.